During our worship night's at St. Luke's The Holy Spirit would come and work on the hearts of all in the building. I was approached by many staff to let me know how much it "changed" things while they were working.
This is a fundraiser a large group of my friends are doing. They are working so hard and believing the Lord for so much. Their hard work and faith are amazing. We are all believing for success, but not just financially, but in the Kingdom!
Since I have been back at home it has been great. It feels so comfortable to be home and freeing. I don't have people coming into my room every 5 min. I loved the staff while I was at St. Luke's but not ever having any time alone was hard. Being able to have a peaceful surrounding has been a breath of fresh air. Coming home I knew there would be a lot of new challenges. While I was in rehab I was always protected and cared for by staff. If I ever needed anything at all, they were on it. Being home I am more on my own. Thank The Lord for my mom who has gone above and beyond anything that I could have asked. At home, I kind of just have to figure things out. I like problem solving so a lot if it I really enjoy. Since I have been home I have had to except some things that aren't easy for me. Things I would like to do quickly and just get done don't seem to be on my schedule. I pray for patience to be okay with things taking longer and not going my way. To be honest it is really difficult. I pray for patience and ask The Lord to work but I've found out that I have some responsibility in that prayer.
13 You, my brothers and sisters, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the flesh[a]; rather, serve one another humbly in love. 14 For the entire law is fulfilled in keeping this one command: “Love your neighbor as yourself.”[b] 15 If you bite and devour each other, watch out or you will be destroyed by each other.
16 So I say, walk by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the flesh. 17 For the flesh desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever[c] you want. 18 But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under the law.
19 The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20 idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21 and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. 25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other. Galatians 5:16-25
In Ephesians it tells us to put on our new nature. When I pray for patience it's up to me to let go and put on my new nature. It says says in Galatians the the acts of the flesh, or some translations say works of the flesh. When we do have our new nature it takes work to live in the flesh and it says the fruit of the spirit. You can't try and make fruit. It just happens. I need to allow the spirit to produce that fruit in my life. I have realized that in the past when asked for patience I haven't gotten out of the way to allow the spirit to produce the fruit. So now when I pray for patience I stand against my flesh, give my frustrations to Him, and let the spirit come. I had a real problem recently with being frustrated and I was holding on to all of it. A close friend of mine called me out and it brought it to light. I was so grateful. It was no longer in the dark and I was able to see it, pray, and allow Him to work. I realized how important it is to have people in my life that are close enough to me to not let me sit in the flesh. Again The Lord is showing me that it isn't all about me and when I try and walk in my own strength I can't do it.